My initial reaction to an offense is always holding back any reaction. There are times that I wallow in pain and struggle to understand what it's for that I hold back any emotions. I play coy. I've always felt the need to answer my own questions so that I won't have to contend with asking the other person what exactly happened and why something awful was done.
I learned today that sometimes it's best to just scream in pain. Whimper if I must. Wallow in sorrow for a good moment in time. Groan until my voice chokes up. Sometimes I need to hear myself tell how bad the situation is. It's not always that another person needs to hear what I think or feel. It's perfectly alright also even if no one's listening except for my little ol' self.
I learned today that sometimes it's best to just scream in pain. Whimper if I must. Wallow in sorrow for a good moment in time. Groan until my voice chokes up. Sometimes I need to hear myself tell how bad the situation is. It's not always that another person needs to hear what I think or feel. It's perfectly alright also even if no one's listening except for my little ol' self.
More than a prayer to God who is more than enough to carry the weight of my burden is His gift of music. He gave me this piece of scripture decades ago and I still remember it with all my heart. Even if no one's there to understand my plight, I'm at peace with the sound of the music in my heart. I can sing all I want and for no one. It's alright as long as I can sing for Him.
Psalm 40:3
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the LORD and put their trust in him.
Psalm 40:3
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the LORD and put their trust in him.